I took leave for a couple of days. I felt tired, very tired. I didn’t need a trip overseas, I didn’t want to hang around Joburg either because I would end up in malls all day everyday. I wanted to rest. I wanted to think. I wanted to reconnect my body with my head again.So off to Limpopo I went!
Lebowakgomo was quiet, my mother’s house was peaceful so I got to sleep, think about my life, eat, sleep and think about my life some more.By my life I mean my career.
Few things got clarified in my head during this time.
1. I am not where I am supposed to be.
2. I used to be passionate about what i do. I haven’t been for the past 3 years.
3. Now more than ever I need a mentor.
4. I am done being operational
So now that I’m clear on the following, I’m so nervous. You see it is clear I need a change, but I don’t know what kind of a change I need. Is it a new career path, new company, or do I go off and do my own thing? I feel so drained just thinking about this. I don’t even know where to start to get the answers.
I am going back to work tomorrow and all I keep thinking is how I don’t want to go back.
The Limpopo trip was great, but man it has left me with a lot of homework.
Something tells me I am about to embark on a big assignment regarding my career.
It cannot be a mid life crisis ne? I am only 31 years young…
Someone out there must be going through this, I can’t be talking to myself